Qawwiy!

Saat tiba nafas di ujung hela Mata tinggi tak sanggup bicara Mulut terkunci tanpa suara Bila tiba saat berganti dunia Alam yang sangat jauh berbeda Siapkah kita menjawab semua Pertanyaan Bila nafas akhir berhenti sudah Jatung hatipun tak berdaya Hanya menangis tanpa suara Mati tak bisa untuk kau hindari Tak mungkin bisa engkau lari Ajalmu pasti menghampiri Mati tinggal menunggu saat nanti Kemana kita bisa lari Kita pastikan mengalami Mati Mati tak bisa untuk kau hindari Tak mungkin bisa engkau lari Ajalmu pasti menghampiri Mati tinggal menunggu saat nanti Kemana kita bisa lari Kita pastikan mengalami Mati ...........................................................................................

Ahhhh it has been a long time I didn't make any entry in this blog. Suddenly I read it today before sleep. Waa, the contents were quite interesting. Hhahaa perasan! Anyway, one week left before the battle of Ramadhan starts. I had menses today. Hopefully by 1st Ramadhan I can fast and pray teraweh without worries. Heee aminn insyaAllah. There are lots of things to prepare to enter this month. Especially spiritual and emotional part. Aaa I think, I am not in the mood yet to talk about the preparation. But I do have few plans, what I want to do, to achieve throughout the 1 month period. Oh Allah, please help me to be strong and firm Oh Allah, please guide me to decide for the best for my future Oh Allah, please shower my parents and siblings with your rahmah, baraqah and mercy Oh Allah, please help me to avoid doing bad things Oh Allah, please let me start housemanship before I turn 25 Oh Allah, please let me feel sincere in everything that I do Oh Allah, please ease my f...

After many many months passed, just like the wind that blow smoothly and silently, how the time flew, their struggles and hardworks were paid. Yes finally, they saw the number. Rm12,000.. I am very happy for them. They survived for the first 3 months of working, being a servant for the govenrment, losing weight for 5kg per month, running up and down, walking from bed to bed and the hands never stop writing and typing, and the brain never ever stop to think. What is next? What is it for? Ottoke?? Aigoo? Cincaaa?? Had wonderful chit chatting with my bestfriends these few days which made me felt very energized and enthusiasm to work. Whatsapping with cute and short lady Dr Mahirah, emotional and brave lady Dr Farhah, talking to Dr Saufiah and Dr Farahin. Alhamdulillahhhh. They were doing well at their workplaces. Stress, workload, oncall were still manageable. I miss them so much. Looking forward who is going to end the bachelor status first? Hahaha Who is next?😎&...

Tiada siapa diduga tanpa sebab. Setiap apa yang berlaku sama ada yang seronok atau pun sedih, yang positif atau negatif adalah ketentuan yang mutlak daripada Yang Maha Esa. Bagaimana kita nak menerima semua ketentuan itu dalam keadaan berlapang dada? Sudah tentu bukan senang. Fitrah manusia untuk berasa sedih, marah, gembira atau kecewa. Cuma bagaimana kita mengawal perasaan-perasaan itu semua mengikut tatacara yang Islam anjurkan, yang Rasulullah ajar. Rasulullah pun pernah bersedih. Tatkala baginda kehilangan isterinya yang tercinta, Saidatina Khadijah binti Khuwailid dan pak ciknya yang baginda sangat hormati telah wafat pada tahun yang sama. Setiap perjalanan hidup manusia tu berbeza-beza kan. Ada orang akan berjaya dahulu, dah dapat kerja, dah ada anak, dah ada kereta, syarikat dan sebagainya. Ada orang yang masih berlari-lari nak menamatkan pengajian dengan cemerlang, masih terkial-kial nak mencari kerja, masih menunggu putera/puteri kayangan yang datang untuk melengkapkan seb...

Dengan nama Allah Yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang. " Allah merahsiakan masa depan untuk menguji hambaNya agar berprasangka baik, merencana dengan baik, bersyukur dan bersabar " Terngiang-ngiang lagi ayat ni. Allah merahsiakan masa depan. Ya. Hari semalam, aku terima satu lagi berita penangguhan. Mula-mula dapat terima dengan baik dan tenang-tenang aja. Mungkin sebab memang belum bersedia untuk menghadapinya. Tapi hari ini, lepas Syakir dan Badri pergi pejabat spa, jawapannya masih sama. Entah kenapa, rasa sedih tu wujud tiba-tiba. Allah tangguhkan kejayaan untuk lulus exam bulan 6 haritu. Terpaksa go through another 6 months. HikmahNya juga sudah diketemui. Alhamdulillah. Perancangan Allah takkan pernah salah. Allah tangguhkan urusan peribadi untuk melengkapkan sebahagian daripada agama, alhamdulillah syukur Allah izinkan untuk aku terima dengan redha. Bukan salah sesiapa, sudah ketentuan yang dah tertulis di luh mahfuz. Siapa aku untuk berkata, " why again...

Reminiscing memories.. I miss my friends badly. They are working now. Had to woke up early everyday to look after their patients, follow rounds, charting, inserting branulass, order for CT scan etc.... Some are doing good, always positive for everything that happened. I'm so happy to see their commitment to learn, to help other people despite of the tiredness, exhausted, sleepless night. LillahiTaala. Some may think, why i am choosing this path, this career, this journey? To end the studies for 5 years already show you how it will be while you are working soon. Now, here we are. I always pray for all my friends. May Allah ease everything for you May Allah helps you to manage the patients May Allah heals the pain of the patients May Allah give them patience to face the tests May Allah grant you guys with His baraqah May Allah accept all your amal while treating the patients May Allah softens their heart to listen to your advice May Allah shower you with His strength St...